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Wednesday, November 9, 2011
been sometimes since i last update. infact, i seriously duno what im yearning for in life. this life is pretty tough ahead. kind of contradicting, miss yet im so afraid to see him got the urge to text him yet my mind stop me from doing so. i wanna see him and hug him badly but again, my mind told me to stop all this from going on. is getting me no where. all gonna come to an end. it all gonna stop here. no point ... life's sucha pain. i come to a conclusion that is not that i couldnt jus get over him. is just that i dont wanna to. im so afraid that i would jus forgets everything, everysingle moment, memories with him... is fate that brought us tgt. of billion passerbys, we met. and is fate that tore us a part. the uncountable things we did together had almost became my daily routine till the day i lose you. been 2 years since our official break up, we still keep this rs going on and offf. is kinda tiring ... when will all this come to an end? is not that ive got someone elses in mind, is not that im a flirt is not that i don love you is just that im so tired of all this shit u'regiving me. times and again i knw deep within that ure lying yet again , i doesnt wanna expose u. jus play along with you. deceiving myself that u aint lying. denying all the facts. i dread going v4 as im so afraid to bump into you. yet whenever ppl rake up v4 , i will jus tell them i simply don like thr.nth much. but u nvr knw, plenty of thoughts .... what if , if i happen to see u thr.hw will i react? what iif , if i happen to see you with a girl, how will i react? what if , it shld hv been a happy night partying but i bump into you with another one holding hand?hw will i react? what if , the one ure holding on to is one of my friend? HOW WILL I REACT? plenty of if , plenty of how....you'll nvr knw how tormenting it is. how hurtful it wad how scared im.... my friends, tru ups n down they stay with me... building me up many times i collapsed. even though we tends to quarrel, and speak a lil behind our back, but they jus light up my life n protects me. my family , nvr a day they will turn their back to me. support me tru out. even though at times we quarrel, theres' nvr hv hard feelings towards each others . and YOU , i stay with you tru rains n shine , tru all obstacles, support u tru, being thr for you, wipes your tears, do every single thing with you, u name it , we did it. yet u left me clinging on, hurting me so badly. it hurt andhurts and still hurting. i knw i did plenty of thing but if u were to love me, u could just get over and start anew. but you didnt. it was ur ego. u treated me like a fool, u FOOLED me like i aint human . show some compassion will you? let me go ... like i told you , let me go once n for all. heartlessly treat me and stop saying you love me without any actions .... stop using me as ur life prop . im a human being with feelings too ... |
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